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"One of the cruelest things you can do to another person is pretend you care about them more than you really do."
"One of the cruelest things you can do to another person is pretend you care about them more than you really do."
"I wonder if killing yourself is the only thing you can control in your entire life, and that’s why it’s a sin. Because you’re beating God at his own game."
I honestly feel like a low-life. I have no plans on what am doing with my life or how I’m gonna get there, I could take the easy way out and enlist in the navy but with the way I am now with my testing I’ll never make it, in not ready and you would think that all these years of school would be preparing you for it. I only have two weeks left and who’s to say I’m for sure graduating I’m on the verge of failing a class right now! With less than two weeks left!! I can’t blame anyone but myself and I know that…. I feel like all my life I’ve been constantly just sliding by with enough to just make it there. But it’s never been the best that I really allow myself to be. I could make up so many excuses but the truth is I take everything that’s given to me fit granted and I always tell myself everyday how stupid I am!!! But I mean, I prove that. It’s so much harder to leave when you aren’t ready emotionally, physically, financially shit I probably only have about 200$ to my name, where is that gonna get me?! A ticket back home but then what? I could collage here but the fact remains is I’m still at home, how does that make me look and feel? Yeah I have a job, a car, and all that but that doesn’t mean anything if my parents are still providing for me, all I see is a bad future from here an out, eaither I’ll be kicked out Or won’t amount to shit, and all I wanna do is make myself proud, fuck the other bullshit. I just want some sweet lady love.
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